Finally something(s) excites me. The other day it was my damn happiest day! There was a solution to everything i need. And on the same day itself, I felt happy and relieved. Only Lys knows, kan Lys kan ? :D Getting a new phone, lappy, shoe, tops, accecories all soonxx ! :D happy happy happy ! Will be out to T1 with Ah Short for shoppinggggg ! ~
Maybe a new phone today :DDDDD excited yknow :D
Need to finish up my LLA assignment, will update soon (:
jealousy is a strong feeling. it leads to revenge and hate. The strong feeling is in me right now. I can't describe how cruel I feel right now. I feel jealous over this typical person. I want somebody like him, not him, but somebody like him. I don't have to see all this but I made myself look at it and made myself down. i have high self-esteem. I can't appreciate myself when i actually should. This is all god's will. It's my fate and I have to face it but i can't. i'm sorry to those who have suffered. i've moved on with someone who is more sincere to be with me.
to this someone : WAIT AND WATCH CAUSE YOU'LL REGRET SOONER OR LATER (:
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you, been here all along so why can't you see? YOU BELONG WITH ME, YOU BELONG WITH ME.
"Jealousy is indeed a poor medium to secure love, but it is a secure medium to destroy one's self-respect. For jealous people, like dope-fiends, stoop to the lowest level and in the end inspire only disgust and loathing. "
- Ranielle
* that's what happens in r'ships. JEALOUSY. And that's how I feel now. jealoused towards the guy whom I left a long time ago and jealoused that he's with someone else's now.
"Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.There is no disguise that can for long conceal love where it exists or simulate it where it does not.An act of love that fails is just as much a part of the divine life as an act of love that succeeds, for love is measured by fullness, not by reception." - Ranielle
I'm trying to be strong to face all the obsticles. But I can't stand on my own. There are times when I feel that I could stand up for myself and say to myself that I have my friends and families and I don't need him anymore. I really don't need him anymore but I can't resist thinking of him more and more. Ya Tuhan
Please, please , please let me forget him. Make me think that he's useless, arrogant and someone whom I shouldnt even be friends with because he's a jerk. But why him? I should remember what he's done to me.
I can't face him and the trouble he's caused anymore. God, PLEASE
Today: Ummi went to KK early in the morning as she's starting her operation at 9. I hope everything's gonna be smoothly fine. "I'll be there for you, I love you, I promise that I'll be by your side, I PROMISE"
I'm paying her a visit this afternoon after school. I'm missing her already :( . She'll not be home till thursday or friday :(
I'm really gonna miss her truck loads :(
My cellphone is "sot" :(
i gotta get a new one .
Currently having DPH lesson right now. he's teaching us about photoshop.
Too bad Jerome already taught me the basic things on photoshop and Jerome taught me the more easier way, this teacher teach the longer way -.-
WTH !
He blamed me and Lys for talking to each other during his lesson -.- WE DID NOT EVEN COMMUNICATE ! -.-
craaaaaaap ~
No wonder my two best mates hate him , now then i realised that he totally suck ! ahahahahaahahaha.
i'm too busy happily photoshopping :D
ohh and classmates; for EBiz tomorrow will be postponed to Wed; 11am to dono what time :D
Sayonara ! ;)
Didnt expected school to be fun today.
The weather was alright when I went out of my house to go to school but when the bus reached simei, it suddenly rained heavily. When I got down the bus, it was drizzling. I planned to take bus 31 'cause I dont wanna be caught in the rain but too bad, all four buses that passed by were all full. Timecheck, it was already 8.20 and that means I'm late for class so I couldnt wait more and just walk off to school. Met Lisda outside before entering class but when we reached class, we were just on time before attendance taking started. I thought lesson was gonna be boring but I had fun laughing a lot and enjoying the practical. We learnt about the boom mic and the key functions for the mic on the video cam. I really had lots of fun! ^^
"About last night, I did fought with you. But then I realised and told myself that there's no point fighting with you 'cause it doesnt come with any goodness, that's why I decided to end it when you apologised. Common. Don't lie to me (:
You can NEVER hide the truth from me. NEVER. I'm not the kinda girl who you thought I was (:
I'll try my very best to get what I want to know. And I'll highlight whatever you told me.
Remember when you told me that you dont wanna be online anymore because you already have what you need ? And I asked you what that meant but you didnt wanted to tell me till the time comes. I know what you meant actually. But I can see that you're lying. Stop swearing to me because you're unfaithful. I knew you'd lie. I knew you just wanted to use your sweets words to melt my heart. I admit that I was taken by your words but now, I no longer trust you. NOT ANYMORE (:
I believe that you don't need any explaination because you, yourself should realise your mistake. Good thing that I didnt fall for you or my hopes for you would turn into a rotten rose. Forget me as the one you love and remember me as friend. I'll treat you the same way I treated my friends. I'm not considering my love life for now."
kita berdua pernah lalui saat-saat yang manis, pahit dan pedih.
Betapa sakitnya hati ini melihat kamu mencintai seseorang yang istimewa di hatimu itu.
Ku terpaksa memberimu laluan dan pergi jauh kerna ku mahu lihat kamu bahagia.
Hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu betapa berat hati ini melihat mu langkah pergi dan hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu betapa mahalnya kasih sayangku buat mu.
Ku tidak akan menantikan kehadiran mu lagi supaya hati ini tidak dilukai sekali lagi.
; My life wasn't complete without you.
All the hard and sweet times we went through were just memories.
You are now my past but I'LL NEVER KNOW if you'll be my future.
Do you know how hard was it to let you go just like that ?
I don't know if my love for you was strong enough.
MY HEART HURTS..it hurts :
..whenever I see you with her
..being happy with her
..saying I LOVE YOU SO MUCH to her
..hold her hands just to let her know that she shouldnt be apart from you
..tell her that you can't live without her
..hug her whenever she feels cold
It hurts, it really hurts.
Here I am trying to avoid you but I'm always seeing you.
I want people to know that i'm independent without you, stronger than before without you.
"please" i beg, "let me forget you for my whole entire life"
ehehe, sounds so emotional up there, but i hate to be this way.
that poem above was done by Lys.
Assalamu'alaikum.
These were the photos taken on monday for my photoshoot. Roy was my model for that day. Thanks roy! I did all the lightings and everything went smoothly; Alhamdulillah (:
And Roy don't forget that you will be one of the actor for my Jerome's group filming (:
Let me update about yesterday :
School > tamp > home .
School: EBiz, photoshoot tak menjadi and class after lunch. Skipped SW lssn but there was attendence taking so I shouldnt have skipped it. Anyway, I wont repeat that mistake again (:
DPH lesson was okay , learnt the basic thing about photoshop. Halfway through the lesson , didnt paid much attention because I was giggling and disturbing Lys :D
Beh Jaja sebok je nak masok campor! LOL
I saw something in FB last night. And it was sucha big dissapointment.
You know what I know yet you still insist on it.
Don't dare talk big infront of me this time.
I'm pissed that you betrayed me. You should've have told me the truth from the begginning.
Fal anggap ***** mcm kakak Fal sendiri tapi u buat Fal macam ni ?
I dont know how to face you anymore, you've ruined your own image.
Dissapointment , BIG DISSAPOINTMENT !
Anyway for today , school starts at 1pm , i'll be meeting her at outside lecture theatre I guess.
there's LLA today and i've not done both assignment :D
HAHA, good of me right ? xD
; FalQatrianqa
*sorry about the face :D*
These were the photos taken with the new MAC comp.
there's more but I dont bother to upload more (:
I tried to rush my time to be punctual but this is what I get in the end ?
I and Lys really did our best to be there before the time given.
Whose fault isit now ? me ? lisda ?
I'm not blamming you because I know that the time has been changed all of a sudden but that's not fair.
I accept your apology but don't suggest me to be your model next time because of your lecturer.
THANKS A LOT ! :D
